My Bad Birthday :(

Monday, October 29, 2012

Is it my birthday right? But, it’s not have meaning to me. That is stale birthday. I just wish my parents remember about my birthday. But they are don’t remember. What’s wrong to remember child birth? That so different about my birthday past year. It’s so cool. My parents were remembered, but my best friend not in my side. I thought was okay. But now? Yeah now? My parents don’t say happy birthday to me. Yes I know I just their step child. But, I still have heart. I just want my parents care and love to me. Is it difficult? Oh my life so hard hard hard.

And it is a bad birthday. My mother angry to me cause I tell she about a happen on hospital. I just said, “if I want patch my teeth, I must make agreement with the dentist and the price are U$10.” An my mother answered, “what? It so expensive. You may not!” I was cried and said, “yes! I know because I’m not you’re really daughter so yo don’t care to me. If I’m your daughter I certain you will care with me. It’s just to my life, If my teeth didn’t patch, my teeth will used up and I difficult to find job” my mother was angry and went to her bedroom.

Ya Allah, please make me stronger, make me always patience. I really tired with my life. It’s so hard. I just want to smile but my heart can’t to smile.

Oh My really mother, if you still life I believe I will always happy with you. But, it’s different situation. I feel want to find job, so I can get what I need and what I want. But, I think impossible there is no worker who has 15 years old. It so amazing I have job and I still school. Hhm? But it’s so impossible.

Monday, October 29, 2012

Today is my birthday

Today is time when I breath

Today is time I seen world

Today is time I started my life

Today is time I felt appy, sad and disappointed

            My life so hard

            No one people who make me fight

            Just like stupid people

            No one care with my life

            They so individualism

I just shut up and cry in the corner

Turn of the lamp and alone

So dark and so hard

            Just Allah cause why I still breath

            Without Allah I will finish my life

            I believe Allah will give a better things more than now

            Thank you Allah you’re my breath

And I just said “I’m okay” to every people J